A little laugh

So This is Where it begins...

....And I have NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING!
I am mildly, no completely, freaking out in my head, quietly though so that no one else really knows. I feel totally incapable of becoming a Graphic designer, not because I completely suck (only a little bit), but that all of my other basic art classes that I am taking I suck at, I feel so small next to everyone when it comes to talent, especially those that are also ComDes majors and say "oh I'm no good at any of this that's why I'm going in to ComDes" but then whip out these totally great paintings or drawings and yet I doodle a rocket ship. I feel so painting/drawing/3D structuring handicapped that maybe I'm not meant to do this. But then I have the issue of what else out there can I possibly do?? I Royally SUCK at math, and no good at science, history, and english, to shy to major in Communications or Mass Comm, and don't know enough of anything to flip my major nor do i care for anything else.Bahldkfj;lisdhf!!! Not to mention one of my art teachers only gives us a week to do projects that my other classes would at the minimum give us two weeks to work on, really now i have other classes not just yours, you cant really expect me to get done with 4 paintings in a week while doing other homework, other art projects AND studying for an Exam !!! aslkdhf@$^%&%*jhGHdjhH*&^#@$$!!!!!! And I'm trying to figure out where and who with I am going to live for next fall semester !

I just need to Breathe

To Trust or Not to Trust

School starts back up tomorrow and I'm really not that excited for it cause it means I have to wake up early for class. But other than that I'm kinda glad that I'm back, not as excited as I thought I was going to be though. These last two days back have been soo boring, except for a small reunion of friends last night. So all boringness aside, I'm hoping for alot for this new year !I hope that there is better health in my family, and more God in my life. I'm also hoping to make some more new friends, because even though I have fun with the ones Ive made here at school I cant feel as if I can completely trust them, and its not like i have a trust issue, but when you see how almost everyone talks bad about one another in a group of friends and then acts like nothing happens, that's when I know i cant say anything to anyone without it being spread around or taken as if I'm "talkin Shit" so Ill take my great moments with them and enjoy it, and Im not looking to replace them whatso ever, because that simply can not be done, though I cant trust them (and by them im mean like 1 or 2)but I need to find at least one friend here that I can put all my trust in and not have to worry about them letting everyone know exactly what (or maybe not exactly just to get drama started) I said.

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Been awhile

So I know that it has been like an eternity since ive done a blog but im back and I'll give a little summary of what Ive been up to !

So I thankfully passed all of my classes for my first semester in college(YAY!), Recieved a scholarship ! and since ive been home for winter break gotten to see my BFFF, met new friends, and pick back up an old one (and i love hanging out with all 3 of them i always have soo much fun!) ! I have seen Slumdog Millionare, which i believe is an amazing movie ! and of course just enjoyed being home with family !

So ive seen a few really cool videos lately and i really want to share it with everyone so here ya go!